Forever, and a day.

To Her :
i hate it when you treat me like that. i din mean t shout , it's cas i got " that one " then my attitude like toilet bowl okay ? hey , (if she refered to SM) then ohmygosh , you've got it all wrong . lemme see , y'knw , she say alot things that pisses me off . yeah , she is a great friend . and yeahs , i knw you're defending her , on her side . yes . she helped me alot . yes , i knw . i knw i knw i knw ! y'knw me , i don't like gueesing games , and faces that's f . but i try t keep it really low alrdy . i dunwant fight can ? it's not i hate her or whatsoever . has she ever thought abt what i feel ? has she ever thought abt words that can hurt ? it's not easy liek , just bearing my shoutings. i hate it when you hate me silently and never tell me anything . if you want me t change , i can . but tell me at least . you all hate me ? okay loh . whatever . y'all didnt tell me anything ? how am i suppose t knw ? e.g if i just hate you likdat , and hate you forever , not knowing that you can change for the better , it's a waste of friendship . so tell me . tell me what have i done wrong ? what i did ? y'knw it hurts me . alot . y'knw what? i've gone thru this many million times , my heart's like no more . i don't want this t happen again . i hate it . i really do , i thought coming t secondary , leaving all my worst behind , will be a great change , positively , BUT no , guess i thought wrong . if you angry can just say out right ? Dont have to point th finger what ? you do things that hurt me too , but i knw you can change , whatever lah , dont' forgive me uhs . i have been doing some soul-searching and y'kwn , i realised . you've changed also . let's not talk abt my stead , i change , b'coz i've been hurt , and y'knw , i'm comfused , dontknow who t trust anymore . everyone's completely different . trying t be strong , isnt easy .it's not him . that i've change . it's you , her , and so many . people take away what i have , and yes it hurts . dontyouknowthat ? it've been likethis for so long . 3 years , that's long enough . cant take it no longer . i thought i could trust you . i really did . but nah , another mistake i guess .
p/s if you dont want me t go on oct 2 , tell me , i wunt go . i dunwant t ruin your mood / shout / whatever . i just need you t be happy . i dunwanna fight no longer. goodbye ,